here's what recently came into my thoughts..
the bad things..the horrible things that u can imagine would happen..
such as
"what if my parents die? what'll happen next?"
"what if one day my apt is robbed? i would have no more money"
"what if one day all the chinese in jakarta (u know what)"
"what if i never get my ideal job?"
"is he really over his ex?"
"is there such thing as 'nothing is forever'? then there would be no happy marriage?"
"is she lying to me?"
"am i really happy?"
"why do i have this feeling if bla bla is not true??"
"does this really matter so much?"
and it goes on..
the horrible thoughts, that u knew that its kinda impossible, but yea, it could happen.
is it good?
i mean, if it really happens one day then you could be prepared for it.
but it could also end up happening because you thought a lot about it that you made it came true..
these thoughts r really frustrating..
they make you feel frustrated thinking a way out but there seems to be none..
they make you feel you are nothing. shit happens.